I
hate asking for help, especially when I feel like I/we got ourselves in the situation we need help with. But I am at a place where it's time to swallow my pride and ask for some help. I know some people think that us raising a large family has been our own choice and that we shouldn't have all these children if we can't handle them. Well let me clear a few things up, we were
called by God to do this job and we our blessed to make this our life,
that doesn't mean we can do it alone. Our family almost doubling this year was GOD'S plan for us - not mine!!! We don't have family to count on and I know some people will argue that is also our choice by moving away from and not nearer to our family but come on, they wouldn't be around to help us out anyways! I feel completely alone a lot and have no one to cry upon except God, sometimes I
feel like he's not hearing me but I
know he is. He has reminded me that His word says, commands us actually to help one another.
Hebrews 6:10
God is not unjust; he will
not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped
his people and continue to help them.
Phil. 2:4
not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others
Luke 6:38 (not just about money)
Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.”
and of course Matthew 25
So here I am with 6 children and 5 weeks from delivering another. Normally I have plenty of energy to do what's needed and then some but this pregnancy has been by far the most difficult for me, not only am I older but I have 6 other kids that need me... every single bit of me! I have found myself taking shortcuts with things I always felt were important and have had to let some things go completely. I know there are people out there that I have disappointed and let down and for that I apologize. I am doing the best I can and I fail... A LOT! So I am looking at the things in my life and forcing myself to give up the things I don't have the time or energy for right now. I will not commit to doing things I don't know for 100% sure I will be able to do, and I apologize in advance if I have to say "no" to an order or a request. Most importantly I WILL ASK FOR HELP when I need it and PLEASE if you offer to help someone always follow through with it, you probably don't know how much that person might be depending on you.